wow a post that isn’t about my life during the pandemic
just frustrated about ethics — because my work is practical, so the potential real world impacts are clear. the way to avoid any ethical discussions is to make my work useless (in real life). but that’s a disservice to all the organizations that have worked with me and helped provide me with data.
just the feeling that if this had been years earlier I would have the energy to carry all this forward. but feeling like i have other priorities now. too many priorities
feel old and in my circle weird to be old and not on the path to xyz life milestone. eg reading about housing market. (i guess i am taking for granted my path toward getting a phd).
meanwhile also reading about afghanistan. it just has this real vibe of how changing political winds in a country halfway around the world (the US) can have such an outsized effect. what morale, to have people who fought alongside you for so many years just focused on leaving the country. but i know nothing of the situation… just puts a reminder on how fragile peace is. i take it for granted, but is it really? just thinking about this world where i live in a country at the top
close the tab. the world keeps existing even if i do. should i pay attention? or keep grinding toward some local sense. i guess that my tax dollars go toward ground force in other countries…
and covid is also resurgent. i guess that i could see it coming pretty easily, given how the delta variant hit other countries, and that our low numbers were coming during the summer as well. miss clubbing. (at what age does it become weird for me to go clubbing? hm)
feeling moderate amounts of stress. running through interviews with a company has improved my mood. witnessed multiple people get full-time jobs in the time i’ve talked to one company about an internship. i got used to (xyz large company) taking 1-2 months just to get back with a form letter email. didn’t realize startups could move so much faster. (and large companies still).
i need to make a goals list again. goal: pass quals, buy myself an ebike. (sail to marblehead / misery island, to provincetown / whales). take.. e-theory class? get more coffees. volunteer more…?
galactic puzzlehunt was a html5 feast, didn’t contribute much, still infancy of puzzle solving abilities
feeling: purposeless. goal to sail across the ocean. not really a purpose… just a goal. (intermediate: newport-halifax, bermuda)
read: Destined for War, Can America and China Escape Thucydides’s Trap?; marine accidents investigation branch
watched: The Imperial Coroner (ep 1- 31, three left), nautilus sailing https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CwV4eBAxWIY&ab_channel=NautilusSailing, cherry magic https://m.imdb.com/title/tt13243836/, annapolis book of seamanship (good)
listened: bbc more of less behind the statistics started back up!
on the list: captain ron, volvo ocean race, etc.
nautilus sailing – power of the computer! see in 3d, polished, etc. not dumb flash animations that don’t let you skip around… note: anchoring: include keel to depth sounder, and from bow to keel, and tide into anchoring calcs. (but also, with that much scope in anchorage, you would swing into other boats, so in practice use less than that). gybe- go ahead and center main completely before gybe. wing-on-wing — watch the main for crash jibe, and ignore the jib, it will behave correctly after a while. give way – port tack, and windward.
Nautilus Sailing cheatsheet:
fashionable masking: got a black kn95 set, drew narwhal on it with sharpie
feel socially overwhelmed
natural disasters: henan and germany flooding, the smoke blowing from canadian wildfires to boston, climate change is happening faster than I thought. and killing people. (but less than if we were less prosperous, without tech forecasting abilities). jeez. drowning underground in a slowly flooding subway car… T__T . myanmar military takeover, taliban …
delta variant cluster even in 80% vaccinated provincetown. variant outbreak in vietnam, in nanjing china right after guangzhou under control. in australia. (not in new zealand) scary time.
also depressing to watch uk, canadian vaccination rates overtake USA despite our initial surge and early access to vaccines. also sad that i can’t participate
have engaged in such risky behavior with sailing, roommates. my roommates are flying basically every other week.