mixed feelings,

feel old and in my circle weird to be old and not on the path to xyz life milestone. eg reading about housing market. (i guess i am taking for granted my path toward getting a phd).

meanwhile also reading about afghanistan. it just has this real vibe of how changing political winds in a country halfway around the world (the US) can have such an outsized effect. what morale, to have people who fought alongside you for so many years just focused on leaving the country. but i know nothing of the situation… just puts a reminder on how fragile peace is. i take it for granted, but is it really? just thinking about this world where i live in a country at the top

close the tab. the world keeps existing even if i do. should i pay attention? or keep grinding toward some local sense. i guess that my tax dollars go toward ground force in other countries…

and covid is also resurgent. i guess that i could see it coming pretty easily, given how the delta variant hit other countries, and that our low numbers were coming during the summer as well. miss clubbing. (at what age does it become weird for me to go clubbing? hm)

feeling moderate amounts of stress. running through interviews with a company has improved my mood. witnessed multiple people get full-time jobs in the time i’ve talked to one company about an internship. i got used to (xyz large company) taking 1-2 months just to get back with a form letter email. didn’t realize startups could move so much faster. (and large companies still).

i need to make a goals list again. goal: pass quals, buy myself an ebike. (sail to marblehead / misery island, to provincetown / whales). take.. e-theory class? get more coffees. volunteer more…?